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My Nonsense

Okay, so my life just took a shitty turn guys. You get to a point where you think you’ve lived through the drama, and that stuff doesn’t bother you. You tell it to bugger off. At this point in my life, I thought my job was to help other people with my drama-filled experienced. Here I am, though, completed kicked in the knees by my past and present. I’m sitting here thinking, “I have done this. I HAVE DONE THIS SO DAMN MANY TIMES.” This should not rattle me. This is new, though. In some weird, unknown way, this is new. This repeats on me, why? How? I’d like to think through no fault of my own, but it repeats continuously. Today, right now, it has a tanginess, and I cannot explain.

Today, this day. I never thought I would have to deal with this. I should have thought better. Known better. I don’t understand why this is even important. I am one of those people who take things. I don’t go around being emotional and illogical about issues. I think, and then I decide what my move will be. Today, I thought and then I decided I just don’t want to deal.

My entire life has been dealing with something like this. Y’all know what I’m talking about? I know you’ve been there.

When people won’t cut you a break, and you know they know they should. Yeah, that. I’m worn out by the drama that’s always been here and I’ve always been prepared for it.

I think its because I am not ready to hold my tongue, or my fists for that matter. Been doing that for far too long. Feels good to admit that.

Violence is bad kids.

Sidenote: a long time someone in Turkey gave me a crown made of roses and I pretended to be a princess for the rest of the day.

Thank you for listening to my nonsense.

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This is such a taboo topic in our culture. We grow up being taught that our parents can do no wrong.
There has to be an understanding that the world is not the same for everyone and it’s okay to accept the differences.
One person’s life experiences don’t nullify everyone else’s. We have to give the exact same weight and importance to others life experiences.
Why is this in particular so important? Because this issue in particular is ignored in our parts of the world. We are hushed and made to feel guilty anytime we start to complain about our parents. Parents can be abusers. Parents are the first people in your life who are supposed to keep you and make you feel safe and if you didn’t feel way you have every right to say it and people who love you and care about you shouldn’t shut you out they should at the least believe you without judgement.

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Eid Greetings

They say human beings can mold and bend with time. They say human beings are strong, while I see that strength we speak of I also see weakness. I also see us running away from recognizing the truth of who we are; we are cowards.

When it truly comes down to it, we are all out for only ourselves. How many of those we claim to be a part of our Ummah is suffering tonight yet we have gotten lost in the festivities of what is to come. How many of our own have lost so much yet we CHOOSE to turn a blind eye. Am I being harsh? Am I?
Where are those Palestinian families sleeping tonight that have been removed from their homes? What of the parents around the world has watched their children suffer and die due to war and violence?
What about the hungry? The poor right in here in our country. Someone asked me if I made clothes for the kids and myself this Eid. I said nothing but wanted to say that I’m grateful we are fed every day and we sleep under a roof every night. We will have something clean to wear; That is more than most.
Let us be more flexible as we are imagined to be. Let us be more grateful as we are supposed to be. Let us be more softhearted as we are meant to be.

eid #eidmubarak #reflection #eidreflections #chaandraat #keepthinking #alwaysremember #humanstrong #oneworld

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Mothers Day is Gone

This goes out to all of those people who don’t have moms; those people who don’t understand the real meaning of motherhood. All of us who get shaky close to mothers day because we don’t know who we are going to celebrate.

This post is for all of us who have always struggled to find our “morheehood” because we didn’t really have an example to look toward.
Not all of us have pictures to post. Not all of us have happy memories to share. I can’t even celebrate my motherhood because it reminds me of all that I have lost. So, now that the day is officially over and I won’t be offending anyone I’m going to dedicate this post and the rest of the night to those who have lost so much to be mothers and don’t have much celebration left in them.
All of you who have lost your mothers and children. Or grew up with mothers who were not worthy of being moms I see you and I hear you.

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Let’s Not Buy Anything

I’m not going to make this too complicated for the sake of my sanity. Have you been to the grocery store lately? Or have you purchased a beauty product, shampoo, conditioner, body wash? Anything for females? You could be a guy shopping for your wife or sister, mother. Notice that the same item will be much cheaper if it’s not in bright, gender-defining colors. Or if it doesn’t say “women,” “female,” or some other word like that on it.

Women’s Products

As women, we miss out on a lot. Some argue that we have plenty to be thankful for as well. As human beings, sure. We do. The problems are not the blessings and infinite worldly gains that Allah has given us in this world and promises us in the next. The problem is what is being taken away from us by other humans who can’t seem to stop wanting to either control others or simply make a buck off of them.

Now, go to the men’s section and pick up the same product, and it will be cheaper, the box might be in a color that hurts the eyes. That’s my personal opinion. Color means nothing. It’s just a personal choice. Although, I will admit that many times men’s items look boring and dull. Not all men are bland and color blind. They can see and appreciate a range of colors beyond black and white. Am I correct in assuming that? I’m not a guy, so I might not have all the facts. Far be it for me to ever womansplain anything.

Women’s clothes are way more expensive, and we don’t even get pockets. I got keys; I got a wallet and a phone. Sometimes I don’t want to carry a purse. Why is the world forcing me to make a choice that I don’t want to make?  

Men’s Products

What’s the bottom line? We are being robbed, and we are being taken advantage of, and we are constantly falling for it.

Capitalists are banking on our blindness to our thought process that if it’s expensive, it must be better. Why are they not pressuring men to think that way? Men’s consumer market simply works on “buy it because it will work and make your life easier.” Our consumer market works on “buy it because it’s the newest style, the latest brand the most expensive one out there. Buy it because you will be the prettiest girl at the party. Buy it because all eyes will be on you. One of a kind.”

For this one, we need to blame the outside world less and ourselves a bit more. Why are we letting this seep in? Why are we letting this be our reality? Why are we letting the seller define how we think of ourselves? Why are the brands able to so easily fools into believing who we want to be and should be? The pioneers of change and goodness. The pioneers of making a difference. It’s okay to want things. It’s okay to have something. It’s okay to want to look good and beautiful, and these are all our prerogative, man or woman.

It is, however, not okay to be puppets to the markets that make us consume without thinking of any repercussions.

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Intentional Thoughts

Recently I have been thinking about everything we are going through and everything we are putting ourselves through INTENTIONALLY. Yes, think about that for a moment. So many of the times we don’t need to do the things we do. So many if the times we do things just because we feel obligated. We do those things because we are burdened by the purpose of our existence. We follow the never ending routine and never ending pressure just to be crushed under it because we feel we are pleasing the unrelenting masses of our society.
Let’s be rebels for a day. Let’s do the unthinkable.

Let’s find the joy in ourselves. Do these pictures relate to what I’m writing? Probably not, you read the part about being a rebel right?

bearebel #rebel #iamme #berelentless #findyourpower #powerinourvoice #powerinyourvoice #beyou #keepgoing #keepthinking #keepmoving #keepgettingup #keepgettingupagain #towhomitmayconcern #professionalscribbler

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This month brings so much uncertainty with it. I know I’m not the only one that feels this way. Many women have posted about not feeling ready for this month. What does that mean? How do we get ready for a month like this? I mean isn’t that the whole point of this month. We are not ever ready. This month is supposed to make us into what we are not. we are not ever “ready” we are not ever prepared to face our demons. That is the whole problem.

Fighting that which is supposed to be hard. Fighting the fight of our lives. It’s supposed to difficult and heart wrenching at times. Those who say it’s easy and fulfilling to face all the hard parts are either lying to themselves or to you. Let yourself feel all those difficult and conflicting feelings.

That’s what this month is there for; It’s to teach us, train us. It’s there to help us see the difficult truths about ourselves and about others around us. There is nothing easy about this month and its okay if it doesn’t come easy for you. Its not supposed to come easy. No training, no lessons come easy. If it’s coming easy then maybe you are not gaining as much from it as you are supposed to. Ramadan is a hard and difficult look at oneself. This month is about exploring a part of oneself that probably stays hidden all year long.

Also, if your true self doesn’t show itself in the same way that it does for other people that’s okay too. Everyone is different. Everyone’s connection to Allah and how they access that connection is different as well. Just as long as you are trying. It’s important that we give ourselves the time and the forgiveness that we deserve.

It’s important that we don’t get caught up in just the ritual of it all. It’s important that we stop and think about the truth, and the guidance that’s been provided and go from there.

We give up because up because we’ve been lied to about what the benefits and the rewards of Ramadan look like. The truth looks different for everyone. The truth is, no one can speak for me or for you. Only you know your truth so don’t let anyone else tell you how you should feel about today or tomorrow or the day after. Define your own way, define your own connection with this month and the days ahead.

Your spiritual connection will depend on your physical, mental and emotional state. Don’t let anyone else be the judge of any of that. Learn your limitations; be confident that your Allah knows you and that is enough. You are enough. What you are doing in your full capacity is enough. That is all that’s asked of you. The rest won’t come easy because this is the real world, however, you can take comfort in the knowledge that things will gradually fall into place.

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My Volcano and Rainbow

This is our master piece. As a family. We did this. I can’t paint or draw to save my life. My children however are great at it. They wanted to paint with me. I had an extremely busy day. Contrary to what these pictures may make you believe I don’t spend as much time with them as I should. I decided to do what they wanted to that day because my guilt took over. Between meetings and writing assignments we created this.

What I realized is that it represents us perfectly. Our family, our life. It is us. I couldn’t have wrote a better written explanation or rendition of who we are as a family. A crazy volcanic tornado that shoots out rainbows.
This is who we are. I just hope and pray we never change. The only other thing left to say is; world, hold on. We are here!

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