It’s unnerving how some people can make you sure of your irrelevance within minutes of being around them.
You understand how much you don’t matter. How insignificant you are; to them, to the world at large. That is not a bad thing, on the contrary. I feel it puts things in perspective.
However, for a person like me who has a habit of exploring her surroundings and reading the people that are with her. I’m always confident that I’ve figured out how liked or disliked I am among the people I’m around. Not being liked has never bothered me. However, being around people who are indifferent to who I am is a strange phenomenon. There’s a lot I don’t care about. That’s indifference. Either you notice or you don’t. But you notice and then you decide someone is not worth having an opinion about is just strange. Not just that, you make sure to let them know that you don’t care. The purpose of this rant will be clear in a second.
I waited to post well after the new years’ hoopla because we think too much of ourselves during this time. We feel that the changes we bring in our life this time of year are somehow different from the changes we promise to bring in any other time of year. That is why I don’t like to talk about perspective on being a better person or being a better version of yourself or of setting unrealistic goals at any particular time.
Time is not always on our side. Only we are on our side. January doesn’t come at our convenience. It doesn’t check our mood, our circumstances, our life events. It doesn’t ask us if we have had any major traumas recently. It just demands that we have fireworks and tell each other how we will be better than we were last year.
What if January is not bringing good news? Why are we forced to “celebrate”? It should be okay to sit it out like any other month and NOT say “happy new year” at every turn because guess what? Sometimes there’s nothing happy about it and that should be okay.
Don’t take this to mean hopelessness and giving up. This means to be real and have a perspective other than just forced to be happy and constantly forced to have a smile on our faces that some of us don’t want to have.
Going back to the insignificance of being. In the big scheme of things you and me and that one day that comes every year- There’s nothing special about it. Those people who are making me feel just like another person standing in line to get approval to be happy and to live my life for the same purpose they do otherwise, they make me, us feel as though we don’t deserve what they deserve.
They are wrong. We have earned our place by just being us. I am amazed at where I am. I am in awe of all of you at where you are with everything you have had to put up with and still do every day of your lives. One day, one weak, one month, even one year gone by doesn’t matter. You have your entire lifetime. You have achieved what you were meant to despite the indifference of the world. You deserve the happiness and the celebration every day despite the rules stating otherwise.
So…Happy Every Day To Us.